Apple Cinnamon

We pawned our halos for
cheap whiskey and cigarettes,
throwing our days in dumpsters.
The street lights choking on night,
we walked like kings counting
 the plastic reindeer and inflatable
snowmen that littered the yards.

Our backpacks filled with all the
rejected holiday fragments from
the Target on 5th Ave and Main.
A snowflake ornament missing a
piece, two strands of Christmas
lights and an Apple Cinnamon
candle with a cracked glass jar

Not good enough for the cookie
cutter houses but perfect for us
gutter snipes, making a home for
ourselves in a vacant garage hanging
our found treasures. The snowflake
swaying defiantly in the california
heat amongst the stars and moon.

While the colored lights kept the
dark at bay and the apple cinnamon
surrounded us like a blanket, we sang
every carol we could remember from
the movies and you swore that if
I listen hard enough, the whiskey
sounds just like me on a cold night.

Celebrating as the unwanted children
of the city, dawn broke and we ran
to the ocean, feeling sorry for all
the poor souls who thought it was
only ever about Santa and we swam
splitting waves and yelling at the top
of our love drunk lungs as the rest slept.

That was the best christmas,our Christmas.
You said none of us will live forever
and this time of year anywhere feels like
home, cement could be cozy if we wanted.
I wanted to keep you but you vanished
never one to break words or disappoint
letting the world swallow you whole.

Disappearing underneath the needlepoint
constellation that decorated your forearms
you've become a distant memory ignited by
the scent of apple cinnamon and the broken
snowflake, as I sit in my dark room drinking
to what was. And I swear if I listen hard enough,
the whiskey sounds just like you...


Draft Two

Last Letter Home

My Dearest,

I've sent countless muddy letters
while trying to decipher words
between the shrieks of shells
and the sudden spit of sniper rifles

We came in thinking we’d have
evil backed into a dark corner
only to realize we are here
simply because we are here

Fighting machine gun bullets with the
breasts of men to claim cratered land
Oh, what I would give to walk on solid
ground instead of mud and duckboards

Tired of war dirt and rain drenched blood
Our rum rations no match for the heavy
stench of death and rotting sandbags
It barely challenges our recent memories

Graves in foreign fields were not on the
minds of those who flocked in the thousands
in hopes to flutter hearts, impress neighbours
and get a crack at the “Almighty Kaiser” himself.

I write with numb and brittle bones tonight
Will you remember me when the time comes
for telegrams, drawn blinds and the columns of
names that will fill the pages of your newspapers?

By: Celeste Medbery  27-oct-13Written for Remembrance Day.

Infection

Thoughts pound down like heavy rain

causing thunderous headaches of a beat.

Lightning flashing bright, intermittently,

revealing the faceless shadow people

who dwell in the dark corners of my mind.

Using suggestive velvet voices, incessant

in their malicious and venomous invasion,

they wait patiently in my drug induced fog;

feeding off my sanity like parasites;

and infecting my intentions..

Written for a contest on brevity and insanity. 

Gutter Mouth

My gutter mouth kisses have
Tainted your delicate flesh
There's no place for such garbage

Snake eyed stars are indifferent
To the atrocity I just committed
I've become your contaminate

I walk in your Footsteps
So that I don't damage your
Sand with my careless existence

Chicken Scratch

The gentle hum of 

empty air hangs low 

And I repeat innocent 

words that frighten me

Letting them crash into 

you like a bag of bricks

 

I'm a pile of garbage in 

your lap grasping at straws

You stop me from my

Self destruction , holding 

my stale bones close

 

Thump. thump. thump.

 

Kick start the heart

Pumping my blood and poison

until you warm your living dead doll

I feel you..

 

do you understand my nonsense?  

 

My chicken scratch and graveyard trash

I don't do you justice honey

Just another horrid angel craving lust

 

Dissecting your dialogue while

Encrypting my own.

But the butterflies show

and you know..

 

its so much more

than we meant it to be

Anchored Wreck

An anchor holds me down
tethering me to the jagged reef
with glimpses of my lighthouse
I borrow it's hopes from the cliffs
while the sun sets colors on fireyour derelict ship in the distance
leaving me to drown in what we were



Word Bank poem

1. Anchor

2.Reef

3.lighthouse

4. Colors

5. Ship

Midnight Oil and Insomnia

Sleep is a fickle whore

who only comes around

when she wants something.

My mind won't be silenced

and your presence 

in my dreams

is torture.

Not even a Dramamine

high is kicking you out

Reason is nowhere

to be found, the

bitch ran out on me

And irrationality took

her place, like a parasite

I want to hate you

but my heart has

already bled for you

So I guess

I'll let this run its

course and see

If i survive it..

While my self respect

Panhandles innocent bystanders 

for drug money

and sympathy cards.

Butcher

I inject man made venom
as I butcher dreams
into some vulgar self
portrait that I finger painted
with this mornings vomit
 
I can taste blood full of
copper and something
that doesn't quite belong
helping me lubricate

the lie I spit at you 

"I'm okay"